its been a while

so lately i've been utterly unmotovated to do anything. i wonder if its residual from my birthday. or just the fact that i think most of my instructors hate me. i've been struggling with my 100 lvl american regional class. i'm getting a D. and it appears that because she's docking me participation pts. which i find absurd. (the thinking is she might expect alot out of me since i am a senior, however, i'm stuck with, how can i say this gently, a moron at my table. shes terrified of everything and rereads her recipies too much. slower than mollasses. thats cause for pts loss.) i talked to my classmates last night about it, and one of them said i should talk to her about it. and i said i did and she handed me a grading rubrick and that was the end of it. then i was told she favors the boys- already seen that in action- and constantly calls me out in class. then ignores me. even spitting out food.(not sure if it was mine or my friend marcos he didnt know either) what the fuck is up with that? then wed, i just didnt feel good, so i sent a txt to the instructor. he txts back "its your dime." really? does anyone else get this treatment? not even, "ok, hope you feel better" or "are you ok?" find out we didnt even do anything in class. i missed nothing. now i have this online class and when i asked for help, because i've never taken an online class, i get told i'm prolly gonna fail. WTF?

and i've been saying i was gonna talk about something thats been ongoing. last may-2009- i got a DUI. now, had i had a cocktail, sure, fine. was i three sheets unable to drive? no. turns out, in AZ thats irrelavant. anything between .04-.14 will get you a ticket. AND, heres the kicker, MVD is automous. yep- the gestapo. dont give one rats ass about anything. so even tho i wasnt convicted, yet, i still had my licence suspended. i'm mad at myself for not speaking up and taking the deal, which i dont reccommend. i shouldve stuck by my guns and fought it, but its a giant racket. huge. was 24hrs in the pokey bad? not really. dont recommend it. foods terrible. i felt dirty for a while, but after learning that having one cocktail, then having your keys and being within 80ft of your vehicle will get you a ticket, i just wish someone else would go thru the hassle. i still have to do 16hrs of counsiling and a VIP for MADD. and lets not get me started on that BS. if i find ONE MADD person with a drink, I'M GONNA SLAP A BITCH. really.

still no job. did have an interview, they thought i was a little inexperienced, but might have a line cook job. i was told since the rules changed i still have to do an externship- really after 15 yrs?- but i have that lined up with the school. so now i'm gonna go do my reading for the online course and look for a job.

after i float around in my pool in this beautiful 105* weather. ahh sunshine, i loves thee. you make everything better!!!