sadness and anger

i was hoping for some understanding, since i havent seen one of my best friends in i bet two years. its not like i can hop in a car and drive somewhere, or hop a train. he lives in TOKYO. so when he asked if i could be company for him and spend the day in phx, i was happy. his mom is very ill, and with him staying outside of town, we havent been able to get together. and i have a new job. it makes me sad that even when i mention these things to the instructor, and am willing to show up at the butt crack of dawn to get the lowdown and whatnot, since we wouldnt be leaving until noonish, i cant be accomidated. so. the grand total of seeing my best friend is two hours in a noisy bar. yeah, i'm a little upset. because if he comes back anytime soon, its not going to be for a good reason. and to top that off, i asked for sat off, and would be willing to fill that day in somewhere else in the week for nana's 90th b'day party. no. i'm working until 7. so now when i go in that day, i have to ask to leave early for it. thanks congress for not extending UE benefits so i couldve at least have gotten thru this week. ugh.

so now i'm watching Bad Boys 2 to make me feel better. ooooosa. ooooosa.